Dermatillomania – Skin Picking disorder

pick pick pick

an obsessive attack

momentary freeze,

no looking back.

.

Whilst I ruin my face

neck

and back.

Others judgments follow;

what on earth is that?

.

Look at what you’ve done

You’ll ruin your face

You once looked so pretty

Now its an absolute disgrace

.

Ashamed

Anxious

Craving the release

letting go of all the tension

all of the negativity and waste

.

With no understanding

and mountains of blame

the pressure builds

and so does the shame

.

Unsure myself

of this obsessive need

wondering why I cant just stop

after I’ve planted the picking seed.

.

Before I blamed myself,

thinking I was weak

when really it was within.

A weird psychological tweak.

.

An anxious release

a coping mechanism

but how would others understand

when they just can’t see them.

.

Attempting to ignore the tricks,

That I have been playing on myself

Noting the feelings that arise

and the thoughts upon the shelf

.

slowing down the mind

seeing and accepting the tricks

knowing that whats to gain

isn’t really what I think it is.

 

– Evie Pardoe

 

 

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